'till there's none

The room was dark. It was totally dark. I don’t know where I am going. I don’t know this place and I definitely don’t like it. I was searching for the light, the light that would lighten this path of uncertainty.
I know I am shouting but I couldn’t hear my voice. I am crying for help. I am desperately searching for someone’s hand in the midair though there’s none. I am walking, heading up to nowhere; my feet just keep on going. I don’t know where to go because I don’t exactly know where I am going. Only one thing is for sure. I am looking for the light, the light that will save me from this torment and this misery.
Then I heard a sound but not my voice. I heard the clock ticking as if it is warning me to move as quickly as I could, to find the light before it stops on ticking. I keep on moving on. I started running and running as if there is someone after me. I don’t know what’s going on. I don’t know why did I get into this horrifying place.
I fell so many times and I can feel that my sweat is rushing down. The sound gets louder and louder as if it is just near my ear. It grew then much louder and it is driving my sanity away. I started to get nervous. There are many questions playing in my mind but couldn’t answer anything, not even one.
Then I keep on going. I am thinking about my family and my friends. I am thinking about GOD.
I pray, as I ran, as quickly as I could. Then the sound was gone and I fell on my knees. Is it the end? I don’t want everything to end this way. I haven’t seen my family. I haven’t hugged them yet. I didn’t kiss my mom for quite a long time. I haven’t told anyone of them how I love them and how I value them. I haven’t hugged my dad since his last birthday. I haven’t hugged my brothers, not even once, not at all.
I haven’t told any of my friends yet that I love them, that I treasure them. How I appreciate everything they did to me, those memories, those precious and distinct time.
But why am I thinking of this? Why am I thinking that it is all over? That it is all the end? I know it is not over yet. No its not! I am a strong person, I know that I am. My only weakness is losing my family and friends.
Then I stood firm, fearless and valiant, undaunted and valorous. I wiped my tears and I started on running again. I’m too numb enough now to felt that I’m too tired. I am gasping for my breath but still I continue on.
And then I heard a sound. A familiar voice I was longing a couple of days. A voice which I heard, I know, when I first opened my eyes into this unknown world. I know her! I know her voice. It was a melody to me. A melody played by some of the most distinguished orchestra. But why is she crying? I haven’t heard her cry, never! Where is her emotions rooted upon? What’s the reason behind her cry, her melancholic, grievous and mournful cry?
And so I ran fast, trying to determine the source of the voice. I swift. I ran. I guess that I’ve been doing these for a span of hour. Then I grieved. I knelt. I am tired. Now I can feel anything. I can now hear my voice, my tormented cry.
I closed my eyes, trying to breathe normally for the last time. I am losing hope now. Then all of a sudden, the place grew brighter. I was stunned by the light. I was too different from what it was an hour ago. My eyes try to accommodate and adapt in to the sudden change.
And there I was. Standing next to where my family and my friends are. They were all wearing my favourite color. The place was so solemn. I could see from where I was, that everyone is crying. my mom was about to faint. My dad hugging her. My brothers were crying. Seem like everyone is sad, grieving and mourning.
I was still in my position where I stood. Then everybody left the scene. Only my family was left. My family is standing right next to a box. It was like a mystical. The box was elegantly made. It was color blue as well. Then a thought struck me. It was a coffin. I was moving forward to my mom. Me knees were shaking. Who died? Who left? Who? I ran to my mom. I ran next to her but she didn’t seem to notice because maybe the thought of that someone in the coffin kept on bothering her. I told her not to cry because somehow everything will be as good as it was. I ask her to sit down for a while but she didn’t notice me again. I hugged her tight only to find out that I just pass through her. I shouted at her. But she can’t hear me. I started crying. I can’t feel anything. Not even a beat from my heart. I went near the box. And on my shock, I couldn’t say a thing. It was me. There! Sleeping still in the coffin. Wearing my blue shirt. Then I glance to everyone. Now I get the point that they are all wearing blue. I want to hug my mom, I wanted to kiss her. My dad and my brothers. But I cant coz every time that I’m doing it, I just pass through them like as if I was an air. I want to say I love you to each and everyone of them. I can accept the fact that I was gone but not the fact that I wasn’t able to show them I love them. That I really love them. How can I give anymore? How can I let it show? I was hoping that everything is just a nightmare but everything is too good to be true. I don’t want to leave yet. I haven’t proved my love to anyone yet. I wasn’t able to realize everything till there’s none. There is no time left for me to show it to them coz my time has gone. The only thing that I could do was do stare at my friends and lean next to my family. I wanted to memorize everything about them. The smiles I used to see in their faces. The times and place where we used to hung-out. My family. how they loved me, how they care for me. It was like so drastically surreal. I spent my remaining times doing the same thing again and again. Staring at them and reminiscing everything.
The clock ticked. Then all of a sudden there was a light casting down on me. I was waving goodbye hoping that someone could feel my presence. I know everything was late. And it was all my fault. I can now see my body vanishing in mid air. It started on my feet moving upward dramatically. Though there was no voice coming out of my lungs I shouted “ILOVEYOUALL” then I’m gone.